Snrk

I hope everyone watched the Democratic Convention, because I did, and it was hilarious. So very worth the time it took up. No seriously. I hate Democrats as much as every other political party, now! It's good to find these things out fairly quickly.

Something that's been getting on my nerves for about 3 weeks:

Ever have a friend that's afraid to tell you something because they think you'll react poorly? It's like people never really learn what you're like even after 5+ years of interaction. 

In the event there is something someone might find out that may make them upset, it's better to talk to them than to avoid the subject completely, non? Because when they find out from someone else, it's just a giant ballsack of weird. And they wonder why you've been blowing them off for however long and start to get upset about that.

So, completely unrelated, my friend Martin has been blowing me off for about 2 months now because he didn't want to tell me he was moving. Obviously the great way to avoid my displeasure at his leaving was just to completely ignore the fuck out of me. Hoooray! He's right, though, I'm not upset that he's moving... I don't need to deal with that much retardation on a daily basis. But I'm not going to tell him I don't give a shit, because that might make him upset. I'm just not gonna talk to him at all instead. :D

Oooh these misunderstandings. They'll get you everywhere!

So, on the upside, Stacey is leaving sunday! Yaaay! I don't have to put up with her judgemental bitchiness anymore! Hooorraaaaay! Or her just walking in and staring at me and trying to get me to tell her "what's wrong". It's gotten to the point where I've started making up shit just so she'll nod like she understands and smile and be able to give me all the advice she's been saving up all summer for just such an occasion. Ugggh. Also, annoyed with not only how completely and totally attached at the  hip Stacey and Dan are, but how she bitches constantly about how clingy he is. 

FYI: Landon, I had a good chuckle at your expense today. And you weren't even there, you fuckup! 

Brad: Joanne and Stacey are pissed at you, I don't know if you care. But it's because of videogames. Which one were you playing?

Fife: You're a failure. Come visit.

Pendulum

I wholeheartedly am promoting the band Pendulum. They are electronica. They are drum and Bass. They are wonderful. Check it.


Peace.

gosh darn im happy here in the lobby. gosh darn am i really happy. so i happy i pity those not here...in cinci....or harshman.......gosh darn im happy

I am so happy here in the lobby. gosh darn am i really happy. so i happy i pity those not here...in cinci....or harshman........gosh darn im happy.....

Perhaps the beginning of a trance song?

in a world where information travels fast its hard for ideas to take their grasp. they might last for some time but could change during this rhyme. you could be in the middle of conversation when you look at your handheld for a revelation. people change all the time. people change all the time. people change all the time. man is changing. man is evolving. man is progressing. man is progressing. man is progressing. progressing. progressing. progressing. processing. processing. processing. =-=-=then the real beat and melody starts slow and low=-=-= then the first line. . . I am changing I am evolving I am progressing man, your arms around me, whispers surrounding. the only constant in who i am.=-=-=the melody picks up=-=-=processing processing processing=-=-= I am changing I am evolving I am progressing man. your love relenting my hope descending the only constant in who i am. =-=-= processing processing processing =-=-= the song escalates into the peak and hits the melody summit =-=-= processing processing processing. i am changing i am evolving i am progressing man. your eyes inducing my heart refusing the only constant in who i am. =-=-= processing processing processing. don't you see the only thing that won't change is us? =-=-= then the song slowly goes out.

hmmm i will try to get a copy of the melody out there maybe? at least at some point soon im just really motivated and need to get working on this before i lose it.

obviously those are just the words. . . what do you think though of the overall idea?

Fable II Pub Games

Your's truly is ranked in the top 750 out of over 100,000. yup. i like to buy my friends with virtual money in a virtual world. and im pretty good at it. peace out


now im in the top 300. 8-26-08

Last look back in Pleasantville

So.

Here's where I look back at my home in Columbus. I grew up in this small little town complete with a Kroger in walking distance, excellent schools, a local ice cream place and even a quaint little historical downtown. You know, the ones you see in the movies? Yeah, that one.

Growing up, I hated this little piece of heaven, really I did. All the boredom that occurred in this place is record breaking actually. Whether it be sitting at the school, which was INSIDE the neighborhood, going to Kroger to buy nothing with the nothing we had, sitting at one of our houses playing the original Halo (that's right. Oldies mother fucker) or just...i don't know, anything unproductive.

But now, I look back on the first big chapter of my life and realize that I had it good. Real good. But of course none of that hits you until the last moment. Hell, sometimes it won't hit you way farther down the road.

This was my last summer living at home. My last time calling my home, "my home". Although it's always gonna be my home....it's now my parents house. It's weird, calling it that. After this year at BG, I'm either staying for summer school and living in the dorms again, or getting a house with a few of my buddies. Or both, I don't fuckin know.

Regardless, I'm finally leaving the nest. And I mean for good. As exhilarating and awesome as it's gonna be, I can't help but feel a slight stab of depression.

Ok ok ok...I'll be honest. I would have ignored these feelings, but this summer, I experimented with a few things that really broadened my horizons. To be frank, I smoked a ton of weed this summer. And I mean like everyday smoking.

Sure, yea, i know....most of you guys don't really partake in those "ilicet" activities, but seriously, It actually helped me out. When I get back to BG, I'm not smoking anymore. No, not because it's the right thing to do or to protect my health and sanity or to keep up appearances (FUCK appearances btw), but because it was an experience. I don't know how to explain what I felt when I was high, but it was magic. Suddenly, it was like, certain topics that i avoided sober came into focus when i was under the influence. I was coming up with more and more logical conclusions when I came out of the high. I was really starting to face my fears in a positive way rather than freakin out.

Sure, maybe most people would say that using mind altering substances is a way out or something that you do simply because you can't deal with things naturally. Wait a minute....thats EXACTLY what I did with reefer! Weird right? I found these accusations to be spot on.....and I'm really ok with that.

I just knew my bounderies with the drug. Rather than getting to caught up in the world and its lifestyle, I just stopped when I knew I reached my limit. Most of the people I smoked with wanted and did try other drugs. But not me. I knew that danger of some of that shit, even though its not as crazy as the news and crazy mothers with tons of free time tell you. Last week was the last time I smoked. I remember thinking, "you know, I wonder what acid or shrooms could do to me?". And that was it. I knew I reached my limit. So that night, I stopped the cycle. I knew when to stop and honestly, I pride myself in knowing my own limits. The experience was done, and I survived with nothing more than an extra pound or two and just a weeks worth of shitty memory. Otherwise, I'm better than ever. I actually started excersizing yesterday!

Now that the experience is done, I can focus again on progress. I can focus on making new friends and meeting up with my close old ones. I can focus on excelling in German in hopes to travel to Austria for a year. I can focus on how I can grow as a person.

Say what you will about my actions and thoughts but I'm mostly at peace.

And even though I'm finally leaving home as a child, I finally feel I'm ready for what lies ahead as an adult.

The best part? I have no fuckin clue what to expect. Wander into the darkness and get lost. Hopefully I'll find my way out.

And as a side note:
"Electric Feel" by MGMT
check it out

-Bradford

Updates updates updates on thursday thursday thursday........

ho shit. well, Im finally done with work as of yesterday. and looking back on it, the hours of my life wasted to paid slavery dosent seem too bad. i might go back to work there next summer if i dont get a job at Keebler (which is right next door to rubbermaid. if i got in there, i would wear elf ears everyday to work. no fucking joke.). So i have a good two weeks before school starts to organize my shit. So, without shame I am going to list books i need here in an attempt to bum them off of any of you who has something i might need. In exchange I promise my unfailing charm and encourage you to list what you need and If i have something on that list Ill let you know.
1)STARTING OUT W/C++,FROM CONTROL...-W/CD (2008 ed) by Tony "my books cost way too much" Gaddis
2)SCRIBNER ANTHOLOGY OF CONTEMP.SHORT... (2007 paperback) "cant write my own stories so im gonna composite others" Willford
3)Norton Anthology of short fiction (2005 paperback) by Richard "hey that Willford had a good idea there..." Bausch
4) Racial and Ethnic Groups (Hardcover, 2007) by Richard T. "if only i actually wasn't a white rich male i could pretend my book wasnt hypocritical" Schaefer
5)The McDonaldization of Society 5 (Paperback, 2007) by George Ritzer (sorry, this one actually sounds good)
6)SOCIOLOGY,BRIEF INTRO.-W/6 AUDIO ABR.CD by Richard "jesus Id hate to see the unabridged version of this" Schaefer

yea, so if anyone has these, a comment here, a text, whatever so i dont have to spend an unchristly amount of money. I actually think if i go to the book store this year as i buy the book i will give them a picture of a homeless person and say "this mans life is ruined by debts accumulated from buying your books. he eats his own shit. I hope your happy." and then leave.

Also, i plan to see Star Wars the Clone Wars tonight but will buy my ticket at the door tonight at midnight. lets see how well that goes...

Finally got around to watching firefly. I really like it. alot. serenity kinda sucked though. not bad but it felt like i blacked out and woke up months later and nothing was explained and was squashed together from three tv shows. Joss Whedon definitely needed more work. Or possibly a continuity editor (Continuity Editor: "umm Mr Whedon sir, I dont know if you noticed this, but you cant just dump off Shepard into the "Abbey" when the only other mention of it was in one line from four episodes ago. Also, Why did you give him cornrows? Oh, and Mr Whedon, where did those two guys with blue gloves go? Because this Lamarr Burton wanna-be with a sword just dosent work out. Half the cast hums the reading rainbow theme every time he says a line. I just dont see any chemistry here..."
Whedon: "I'M DRUNK ON MY OWN EGO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY OFFICE OR I WILL RIP YOUR LEGS OFF AND FEED THEM TO MY TWIN PET CARNIVOROUS GIRAFFES RAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"

In other news, i finally have a solid idea for a book that ive accumulated from all the other ideas and half baked schemes that i call writing so i plan on fuddling around with that when i can. However, it does not involve carnivorous giraffes. shame.Im learning the harmonica. dont know if i mentioned that. also got my hair cut today. its shorter than ive had it for a while. about the same length of fifes when he first got his cut. its just much curlier. and i wash it more. yea...so, hope you are all having a good time. i plan on seeing you again soon. (assuming fife will visit us at BG) and also want to mention that i heard from Bri that Pete said guns will be allowed on certain parts of campus for BG UNDEAD which is better than no guns. so lets hope things turn out well. Later lobbyists.

New Board Game by: Fife

so i'm gonna make a freakin sick board game. i'll let you know when it's done. OR WHATEVER OMFG IM FREAKIN OUT WITH IDEAS!!!